Life.

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Life and I haven’t always had a great relationship. Just like most people on this planet, lady life has kicked my ass a few more times than I think necessary. The amazing thing about life, it surprises you. Just when you’re ready to pull out every strand of hair, lady life gives you an amazing gift of opportunity.

Being an artist is the epitome of the unknown. When will my next show be? Can I find it in my budget to hold a class right now? I just paid to show art here, what if no one buys anything? What if no one shows up? I’ve had to deal with these things constantly. If I hold a reception without turning a profit, I still count it as a success. I consider it an achievement because I got off my butt and tried. It’s not easy, if you hold three shows in a row with little turn out it becomes disheartening. That is probably one of the reasons why I haven’t touched a paint brush in two months.

Before I get too far ahead of myself here, it’s perfectly fine to take breaks from your passion. What’s not okay is giving up completely. I recommend switching hobbies when you’ve hit a creative road block.

I did just that, I’ve been pouring my heart and soul into a non-profit that can’t promise me stability or income. I knew that going in, so why did I choose to dedicate myself to something like this?  It’s really simple, my heart’s in it. Nothing is more precious to me than my time, I choose who and what are worthy of me. If I had a choice, I would dedicate every ounce of my time to this organization. I say this because it’s brings me so much love and healing. I have been working with un-Defined since September. It’s breath taking the amount of things we have already set the foundation for.

Un-Defined is a non-profit organization located in Sioux Falls, SD. Our mission is to empower, educate and support women and children who have experienced domestic and sexual violence in their life. We do this through peer support groups, mentoring, offering resources to the community and awareness.

One of our current projects is a fundraiser happening in April. I can tell you one thing, I had no freaking idea how much work went into this stuff! Seriously, asking people for help is hard enough for me. However, in order to hold a function like this, you gotta ask a ton of people for a ton of things; for free.

I couldn’t do this without the founder of un-defined. She is a literal life saver. I say this because she is the “pusher” I never had, she checks in on you (she’s a mom).  We all need that person who motivates or inspires us, we all have dreams and goals but I’ve learned I really need someone to keep reminding me that my work is a route. Not something I pick up and put down, I need to commit myself if I ever want to accomplish anything. I also need someone to help me.

The crazy thing is…that’s what un-defined is all about! This remarkable woman who has been through hell and back is helping me achieve my goals. Mentoring is such a powerful thing.

I fully believe that if you put good in you will get good out. It’s not easy to stay positive with this motto, you can give all the ‘good’ you have and still have a terrible day/week/month. That’s just how life goes. BUT, today life rewarded me with something I never could have imagined would happen. Today, I was asked to hang my artwork for two months at a gorgeous venue. Even though I had stepped away from my passion to re-center myself, now I feel as if life is pushing me to my passion. It’s giving me signs to share my heart with an audience. The best way I know how; through art.

You suck sometimes, but thank you life. Thank you for this great opportunity.

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